Writing
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
... ugh!
We have begin our collective journey into The Artist's Way at Reflections. For the last three years, I have assigned a book for us to read together. This year we will spend two weeks on each chapter and seek ways to integrate the work within our ongoing practices. I originally read this book for the first time almost ten years ago
So this morning, I began with the first of the exercises. I wrote about how brilliant and prolific I was as a writer. Omigod! You would have thought I was claiming rights to the Nobel prize in physics! The "shadow artist" as Cameron calls the Censor, raised her head up and began reciting so much claptrap. She could not get any traction with the quality of my writing ability so she went for the jugular on prolific.
If you are so f@king prolific, how come your blogs are so few and far between? And how come you haven't finished that crappy book you go on and on about?
At first I simply answered back with evidence of my recent blog writing. But then something hit me. The reason I am stalled on my book has nothing to do with whether I am brilliant or prolific. I am stalled because I burned out writing my book without taking time to feed my inner artist.
My problem is not quality or quantity. My problem is I do not nurture my artist self.
So I stopped explaining or defending myself. I instead crafted a response that affirmed exactly what I need.
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
.... yeah!
And that made all the difference in the world.
Because ... I am a brilliant and prolific writer ... who takes the time to nurture her gifts.
Ashe!
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Submitted by katrina on Tue, 02/05/2008 - 2:45pm.
I have great news. My first book of poetry, Dark Beauty: Poems at the Heart of the Darkness is now avaialble .
As I get down to the wire on my current book project, I took a little time out to get Dark Beauty out the door. I began selling it at this past weekend's Between the Worlds conference.
The book is $11.95, shipping included. At the moment I can ship web orders to the US and Canada only. Please use the contact form to inquire about shipping to other countries.
I am very excited about this collection. It contains 23 poems that are centered around an intense love affair that lasted less than four months. It contains some of my rawest work from an emotional standpoint and I sometimes think that is the reason it took me so long to publish it.
I hope others can appreciate the beauty of my darkest poetry, because even after all these years, it still speaks to me.
love and best wishes,
Katrina
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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 11/12/2007 - 9:26pm.
So here I am struggling to finish Chapter 6 of Psy & Magick, configure my web site to sell Dark Beauty, prepare for Between the Worlds, and do about a bazillion other things under the auspices of my web design business ... and so what do I do?
Why I join NaNoWriMo of course.
And so in addition to everything else on my plate ... not to mention a boat load of writing underway already ... I plan to work on my novel ... uh ... on the side ... in my uh .. copious free time ....OMIGOD .... WHAT ON EARTH WAS I THINKING!!!
... Soooo anyway ... attached to this post is the current table of contents for my book. If you are reading this on LJ, you may have to click the link provided. If you are reading this on my web site, you will have to click the teeny- weenie "attachment" link at the bottom of this post to see the attached file.
I decided to split chapter 6 into two chapters, and provide more info on the shadow separate from the theories of John Beebe. This way I can fold in more of the stuff I include in my two hour shadow lecture. And at the same time, give Beebe more room and stature - absolutely brilliant guy. So that makes eleven chapters at the moment.
Chapters 1 through 5 are ready for another Rose review. My plan is to either finish Chapter 6 and then do the book proposal, or just skip ahead to the proposal. Considering that I have to pause anyway due to the upcoming conference and stuff in general ... skipping to the proposal may be a good idea. (Advice welcomed!)
Also to everyone who keeps asking me if they can get signed copies of Dark Beauty - of course you can!
I will definitely sign them in person, and when you order them online, I will include an area where you can write in how you want my signature personalized and to whom it is addressed - y'know, in case it is a gift .... hint-hint ... just saying!
They will be $10 at the conference and $11.95 thereafter. And do not worry, if I run out, I will just order more ... thank the gods for print on demand!
Samhain blessings to all
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Submitted by katrina on Fri, 11/02/2007 - 11:22am.
Well, I did it!
I just ordered 50 copies of Dark Beauty.
Am I out of my freaking mind?
My hands were shaking as I hit the submit button.
Of course lulu.com was very helpful ... ARE YOU SURE? YOU ARE ORDERING A QUANTITY GREATER THAN ONE! ... Jeez! Talk about giving me the willies!
I had already purchase and reviewed two proofs and I do not have time to get another proof before November 8th and the start of Between The Worlds. Sooooo I am taking the plunge!
Hopefully it will not be a bath.
Other than that excitement ... lessee .... Oh yeah!
Thanks to everyone who responded, called and sent prayers my way. I feel so much better. Still sad for my friends, but now that I have some distance, it is a sadness I am honored to bear.
I've been on the phone off and on all day -- (hint: something wonderful happened about 52 years ago!) And it is such a beautiful day.
Gangster GeekAnd what am I doing ... why I am having a veritable geekfest! Just in case you had not noticed ... I have another blog I update occasionally - Amber's Blog on my web design site. I decided I needed to feed my ever loving geek heart so I have dedicated this week to getting my geek on!
Yeah, BABY! I am doing it ONLINE!
love ya -- mean it,
K
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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 10/22/2007 - 2:24pm.
This sounds like something I need to do. I hope that I can work it out.
Connect DC is TEN?? Wow. Time flies.
Did I ever mention to you that I think the impact that working had on me was to connect me to DC? I'm so hooked in here ... just call me "swamp thang."
Speaking of which ... isn't it margarita weather? Let's get together.
Much love,
Reya
p.s. So cool to see my drawing again! Thank you for publishing!
"Such beautiful dreaming! Such clear work. You sound so much in-focus just now.
I honor this work and delight in reading your words ... and I'm moved to participate in the dreaming-work, perhaps more than is appropriate.
I think I'll take the risk, and I hope you'll tell me if you'd rather I not do it again.
In the dream group I used to work with, we would read one of our dreams aloud and then go around the room, each one beginning their remarks with "If this were my dream..." and then sharing whatever the pieces seemed to illuminate for them. And then the next person might see something quite different in the same images, the same words.
In that sense, if this were my dream just now, in my dream I am surrounded by water -- my life is filled with emotion, covering and drowning everything else, so that all I can see is my feelings.
The gathering of song and all these incredible people -- my life, friendships, the harmony we make together. And in my dream, I am beginning to see myself moving on. Does this mean a change of geography? a change of emphasis? in my life this minute this could be about gradually shifting some of the focus of my everyday spiritual community from the UUs to the Yoga studio, or it could be something quite different. If I had this dream last week sometime, it would look like the impending end of an important relationship.
And in all of those possibilities, I am so present to the sadness with which I gather up what is mine to take with me, make my farewells, and lose my ability to remember the words. In all of these possibilities, even as I'm leaving I'm rethinking the choice to leave ... do I really have to? why?
In my dream, I look for my car because I want to escape ... and I can't find my car because there's no way out. As I'm searching the beautiful dark man in the hotel uniform helps me -- the hotel uniform telling me that wherever I am is only a way station, his beauty telling me that I can enjoy and appreciate his help, his darkness telling me that sometimes I need to look closely to see what is important (other times everything is well-lighted).
I keep looking for the way out even as the hotel man would make me welcome, and eventually the welcome is withdrawn as he leaves. And then I am lost and wandering, trying to find my way home -- having ignored help and support, I find I can't find the way alone after all.
And now that my dream has ended, I see there is much here that I can use in my waking life, too. So thank you for dreaming this dream, thanks for sharing it, thanks for letting me dream it, too.
Many blessings, Dear One"
"I sit staring out the window, not lost in thought, but feeling completely and totally blank inside." I have been sitting in a similar space.
Your post reminds me to trust and to listen for the song.