Writing
It must be difficult being a student of a mystic. Often I feel like I owe my students an apology.
In my defense, I feel like I am in a single continuing conversation, and the faces all start to blur at some level. So I will begin conversations with, “As we were discussing,..” and then realize ten minutes in that this person who is now in front of me has no idea to what I am referring.
And I will say to the person to whom I began the conversation, “I was talking with a dear friend and …”. And only much later does it occur to me that this may in fact be that dear person standing in front of me.
I often say things that mean something different than how it first appears. I have noticed people correcting me then immediately repeat back what I thought I had said. I cannot tell if I had that part of the conversation internally or whether what I intended to say was spoken out of order.
I find myself confused often in conversations. I am hearing things that were not spoken out loud … or something. Sometimes it is as if I maybe missed part of the conversation.
This would all be frightening, disorientating, or depressing if were not for the almost constant flow of light, beauty, joy, connection and delight that permeates almost everything I do. I am reassured by every inhale, delighted by every blooming flower and comforted by every drop of water that passes across my lips.
Life is so rich, sweet, succulent, promising and full right at this very moment.
Oh yeah, did I mention that my book is finished? I am writing the preface and making final touches on the intro. And right now, that is oh so sweet and satisfying.
Blessings of the Waxing Moon as we turn toward Beltane’s Eve.
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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 9:54pm.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
I am a brilliant and prolific writer.
... ugh!
We have begin our collective journey into The Artist's Way at Reflections. For the last three years, I have assigned a book for us to read together. This year we will spend two weeks on each chapter and seek ways to integrate the work within our ongoing practices. I originally read this book for the first time almost ten years ago
So this morning, I began with the first of the exercises. I wrote about how brilliant and prolific I was as a writer. Omigod! You would have thought I was claiming rights to the Nobel prize in physics! The "shadow artist" as Cameron calls the Censor, raised her head up and began reciting so much claptrap. She could not get any traction with the quality of my writing ability so she went for the jugular on prolific.
If you are so f@king prolific, how come your blogs are so few and far between? And how come you haven't finished that crappy book you go on and on about?
At first I simply answered back with evidence of my recent blog writing. But then something hit me. The reason I am stalled on my book has nothing to do with whether I am brilliant or prolific. I am stalled because I burned out writing my book without taking time to feed my inner artist.
My problem is not quality or quantity. My problem is I do not nurture my artist self.
So I stopped explaining or defending myself. I instead crafted a response that affirmed exactly what I need.
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
I am allowed to nurture my artist!
.... yeah!
And that made all the difference in the world.
Because ... I am a brilliant and prolific writer ... who takes the time to nurture her gifts.
Ashe!
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Submitted by katrina on Tue, 02/05/2008 - 2:45pm.
I have great news. My first book of poetry, Dark Beauty: Poems at the Heart of the Darkness is now avaialble .
As I get down to the wire on my current book project, I took a little time out to get Dark Beauty out the door. I began selling it at this past weekend's Between the Worlds conference.
I am very excited about this collection. It contains 23 poems that are centered around an intense love affair that lasted less than four months. It contains some of my rawest work from an emotional standpoint and I sometimes think that is the reason it took me so long to publish it.
I hope others can appreciate the beauty of my darkest poetry, because even after all these years, it still speaks to me.
love and best wishes,
Katrina
Buy via lulu.com
OR via Amazon.
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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 11/12/2007 - 9:26pm.
So here I am struggling to finish Chapter 6 of Psy & Magick, configure my web site to sell Dark Beauty, prepare for Between the Worlds, and do about a bazillion other things under the auspices of my web design business ... and so what do I do?
Why I join NaNoWriMo of course.
And so in addition to everything else on my plate ... not to mention a boat load of writing underway already ... I plan to work on my novel ... uh ... on the side ... in my uh .. copious free time ....OMIGOD .... WHAT ON EARTH WAS I THINKING!!!
... Soooo anyway ... attached to this post is the current table of contents for my book. If you are reading this on LJ, you may have to click the link provided. If you are reading this on my web site, you will have to click the teeny- weenie "attachment" link at the bottom of this post to see the attached file.
I decided to split chapter 6 into two chapters, and provide more info on the shadow separate from the theories of John Beebe. This way I can fold in more of the stuff I include in my two hour shadow lecture. And at the same time, give Beebe more room and stature - absolutely brilliant guy. So that makes eleven chapters at the moment.
Chapters 1 through 5 are ready for another Rose review. My plan is to either finish Chapter 6 and then do the book proposal, or just skip ahead to the proposal. Considering that I have to pause anyway due to the upcoming conference and stuff in general ... skipping to the proposal may be a good idea. (Advice welcomed!)
Also to everyone who keeps asking me if they can get signed copies of Dark Beauty - of course you can!
I will definitely sign them in person, and when you order them online, I will include an area where you can write in how you want my signature personalized and to whom it is addressed - y'know, in case it is a gift .... hint-hint ... just saying!
They will be $10 at the conference and $11.95 thereafter. And do not worry, if I run out, I will just order more ... thank the gods for print on demand!
Samhain blessings to all
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Submitted by katrina on Fri, 11/02/2007 - 11:22am.
this post is giving me major chills.
Blessings.
A student of mysticism said to his teacher, "I'm confused. Yesterday you told me the way I should searchy. Today you told my friend a very different way. Which is correct?"
The teacher responded, "Some people veer off the path to the left and I tell them 'move to the right.' Others stray too far to the right, so I say 'move to the left."
I'm sorry to hear of Squeaky's passing. I know she and you had the very best that humans and their animal companions can have. May she live in your fond memories.
Love,
Macha
I'm so, so sorry to hear of Squeaky's passing. Much love and healing to you.
Hail Squeaky!
She was a very fine cat, indeed.