Habits

Habits: Yoga

Every morning without fail, I turn over in bed and announce to no one in particular, "There is no fricking way I am doing yoga today!" Body aches and stiffness are often my morning "weather report" as I cross from dreaming into waking. However, less than thirty minutes later, you will almost always find me on the mat.

How did I turn my sun salutations into a habit? Here is a hint, it was not simply an exercise of will.

I have been taking yoga classes for over seven years. I started out in a class titled, "Special Conditions & Injuries." Often the stroke victims, car accident survivors and those suffering from debilitating diseases were some of the most flexible folks in the class, at least in comparison to me.

I was being out posed by an old man who limped in using *two* canes fer petes sake. It was pretty demoralizing initially, but I stuck with it.

Over time, the joints started moving ever so slowly till one day, where previously there had been nothing but pain, there was suddenly movement. And I was hooked.

Session after session, I moved slowly from special conditions to gentle yoga, to gentle yoga 1. I now notice others peering at me like I use to envy the old gentleman. And I reassure them that they too can one day ... touch their toes.

The reality is that each morning when I start, I too cannot touch my toes. From my forward bend I need only tilt my head to be in flat back pose, I am that stiff initially. But by the end, my palms often touch the floor.

The key was in figuring out what was an actual limit that needed respecting. At every difficult juncture, I ask myself, "Is this an edge or a limit?" If it is an edge, I proceed with prayer, with breath and with an open heart. If it is a limit, I stop, breathe, pray and back the hell up.

And it is that question that turned my irregular practice into a daily routine. I decided that my growing edge was creating a habit out of self care. Radical self care is the water that makes all my fiery work possible. It counterbalances my predatory and visionary nature with some much needed nourishment and grounding.

Sometimes building a habit is not a testament to will, sometimes it is instead a testament to restraint.

blessings

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Submitted by katrina on Sat, 10/06/2007 - 2:57pm.

Habits: Tools of Change

I am constantly looking for new ways to structure my time and build supportive infrastructure as I change, heal and grow. In many ways, I can be thought of as a productivity nut case, with one caveat, my so-called “obsession” is directly liked to my spiritual life.

I have used many, many systems over the years to augment my natural organizing and planning skills. I have used Franklin planners, Covey, and now “Getting Things Done.” Each methodology was tailored to my individual needs and wherever I happened to be on my own evolutionary path. And anything that truly worked for me was never discarded in honor of some new trendy idea. I have retained from each what ever I considered as a key principle or process.

My most recent addition has been the ideas and tools created by David Seah. He is a designer extraordinaire, and as a free-lancer struggles with some of the same issues I face every day. His Printable CEO series helped me to figure out how to structure my work and decide in the moment what has priority.

This year, David has been investigating what it takes to build a habit. I have been using his blog to help motivate me to create new habits of my own.

The first habit I created was my morning routine. The current version is the result of months of experimentation and reflection. Last year, I developed what I called my canonical hours. It is roughly based on the Islamic, Catholic, and Anglican systems of prayers. (The Christian systems are based loosely on the Roman systems of hours.) I even found a pagan system online, but I later decided it was unworkable for me in my urban setting.

An Elemental Map of the Day for a Retired, Urban Mystic/Shaman
Period Name Description Element Office Prayer at start
x - 9 Awakening Quiet, unfocused period Spirit Matins Prayer of opening
9 - 12 Meditation Spiritual practice, yoga, mantras, etc Air Terce Breathing
12 - 15 Work - Solar The work of the day Solar / Fire Sext Prayer of focus
15 - 18 Recess Create, study, play or rest Patrons None Prayer of passion
18 - 21 Work - Lunar The work of the evening Lunar / Water Vespers Prayer of compassion
21 - x Reflection Quiet time before retiring Earth Compline Prayer of completion

I tried working from it directly but it just did not register with me at a deep enough level. So I just let it sit and went on with my regular methods.

But what I have discovered is that this map of the day acted as a subtle framework and now a year later as I contemplate my morning routine, it literally lines up with the first several tiers of my elemental plan. So now I am ready to reexamine this framework with a new perspective – what really works for me.

So without further delay, here is my current morning routine.

  • Cat Care
  • Yoga / Exercise
  • Breakfast / Meds
  • Journal w/Tea
  • Psychology & Magick (my book)
  • Planning (after Lunch)

I have a corresponding evening (6 pm) routine, but it has not caught on as readily, so I am still observing and reflecting.

  • Review Day
  • Planning
  • Journal/w/Tea

And finally there is my weekly routine, which squarely puts my book first except on days where I have standing morning appointments. And it also illustrates my other major habit creation, radical self-care.

Weekly Routines
M Book Sort Laundry
T Book Bills / Reconcile
W Medical / Book Trash
T Yoga PO Box / Groceries
F Book Backup Laptop

I am sharing this information in honor of my hero David Seah. He has inspired me to create systems that support my lifestyle. As an independent writer, web designer and crazed mystic, I need systems that are open, flexible, and contribute toward my larger life goals.

In future posts, I hope to share more about how I organize my life.

Until then my check-in is complete. Check!

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Recent comments

  • Storm (not verified)

    This sounds like something I need to do. I hope that I can work it out.

    4 weeks 3 days ago
  • Reya Mellicker (not verified)

    Connect DC is TEN?? Wow. Time flies.

    Did I ever mention to you that I think the impact that working had on me was to connect me to DC? I'm so hooked in here ... just call me "swamp thang."

    Speaking of which ... isn't it margarita weather? Let's get together.

    Much love,
    Reya

    p.s. So cool to see my drawing again! Thank you for publishing!

    9 weeks 2 days ago
  • NorthLight (not verified)

    "Such beautiful dreaming! Such clear work. You sound so much in-focus just now.

    I honor this work and delight in reading your words ... and I'm moved to participate in the dreaming-work, perhaps more than is appropriate.

    I think I'll take the risk, and I hope you'll tell me if you'd rather I not do it again.

    In the dream group I used to work with, we would read one of our dreams aloud and then go around the room, each one beginning their remarks with "If this were my dream..." and then sharing whatever the pieces seemed to illuminate for them. And then the next person might see something quite different in the same images, the same words.

    In that sense, if this were my dream just now, in my dream I am surrounded by water -- my life is filled with emotion, covering and drowning everything else, so that all I can see is my feelings.

    The gathering of song and all these incredible people -- my life, friendships, the harmony we make together. And in my dream, I am beginning to see myself moving on. Does this mean a change of geography? a change of emphasis? in my life this minute this could be about gradually shifting some of the focus of my everyday spiritual community from the UUs to the Yoga studio, or it could be something quite different. If I had this dream last week sometime, it would look like the impending end of an important relationship.

    And in all of those possibilities, I am so present to the sadness with which I gather up what is mine to take with me, make my farewells, and lose my ability to remember the words. In all of these possibilities, even as I'm leaving I'm rethinking the choice to leave ... do I really have to? why?

    In my dream, I look for my car because I want to escape ... and I can't find my car because there's no way out. As I'm searching the beautiful dark man in the hotel uniform helps me -- the hotel uniform telling me that wherever I am is only a way station, his beauty telling me that I can enjoy and appreciate his help, his darkness telling me that sometimes I need to look closely to see what is important (other times everything is well-lighted).

    I keep looking for the way out even as the hotel man would make me welcome, and eventually the welcome is withdrawn as he leaves. And then I am lost and wandering, trying to find my way home -- having ignored help and support, I find I can't find the way alone after all.

    And now that my dream has ended, I see there is much here that I can use in my waking life, too. So thank you for dreaming this dream, thanks for sharing it, thanks for letting me dream it, too.

    Many blessings, Dear One"

    9 weeks 5 days ago
  • hele (not verified)

    "I sit staring out the window, not lost in thought, but feeling completely and totally blank inside." I have been sitting in a similar space.

    Your post reminds me to trust and to listen for the song.

    11 weeks 1 hour ago