Money, Money, Money … Money!

Price Tag

Recently I had occasion to read Occult Psychology by Alta J. LaDage. A friend brought it to my attention because I am writing my own treatise on Magic & Psychology and LaDage covers some of the same material I plan to cover. LaDage focuses on the relationship and correspondence between Jungian psychology and the Qabalah, which is notable in and of it self. But buried within her discussion of life force was a short piece on money.

She is discussing the differences between Western and Eastern psychology, in terms of their respective symbolism associated with energy. She was deepening the discussion by illustrating how Jung had taken Freud’s limited concept of libido as simply sexual energy, and expanded it to become in the West the equivalent of Kundalini or life force in the East. After a few paragraphs illuminating how we in the West have a limited view of life force energy, she suddenly launched into a polemic on money.

Where psychology is concerned, however, Western man responds best to something he is paying for. That is one reason why modern psychology works best for him.

This statement is startling enough, in as much as she is saying that because of our Western predisposition, we respond best to psychological or occult teachings when we pay. But then she follows up with the most amazing confession.

I have been on both sides of this fence and as a result I am convinced that the teacher or psychologist who does not charge money for his services, serves best. When we have to take into consideration the patient’s ability to pay, we find ourselves in the position of a house divided against itself.

Okay. So for Western minds, paying for psychological help is what works best, but she refuses payment because it is too hard for her to navigate? Is it just me, or can anyone else smell “ISSUES” swimming around underneath this statement? I would have stopped right then and there, but she goes on to say some pretty profound statements about money in spite of, and some might say because of, her challenges in this area.

… in the West money is our magic talisman … Money is, in fact, libido crystallized ... That is, through working at a job, we transform some of our energy (physical, mental, emotional) into green paper, which we then trade for goods (the product of someone else’s energy).

She then launches into all the other ways a person can receive payment, such as barter, exchange, and, get this, payment of “pure love alone, which is what the good Hindu teacher prizes above all else.” She even calls the AA vow to give comparable service to another, i.e. the 12th step, as a form of payment. I do not disagree with any of these types of payments and I personally have accepted all of them at some point. But it is her next statement that throws me.

By refusing all of these other forms of payment, of dedication if you will, orthodox psychiatry has limited its clientele to one particular kind of patient: the person with money, and the person who values money-that is, who has a money psychology.

So Western psychological treatment works best if it is paid for, but anyone who only accepts patients or students who can pay with money is limiting their clientele to those with a “money psychology”. She doesn’t explain this type of psychology any further, and she then admits that limiting your patient/student in such a way is not a bad thing. Because even “Alcoholics Anonymous limits its clientele to those with alcohol problems.”

Okay. So according to LaDage, it is okay to require payment in cold hard cash, as long as I only intend to teach and/or treat those with a “money psychology”, whatever that is. We westerners apparently also have a money psychology when we pay for our food, housing, health care and education too. But then isn’t this similar to what she just said earlier about Western psychology in general? So is she saying that money psychology is the same as Western psychology? And if Western psychology is a money psychology, whom are we treating or teaching when we do not charge money? Hmmm? Do they cease to have a money psychology simply because they get it for free?

I know I am having a little fun at LaDage’s expense. Because while at the same time as she is incredibly insightful in this area, she continually contradicts herself. And to be fair, she is conflicted over money just like so many of us who are occult and spiritual practitioners here in the West. It is a difficult area to navigate on one’s own. She agrees with this point and provides some evidence of the madness.

“We are psychologically conditioned to believe that if it is for free it isn’t any good, and at the same time we are always looking for something for nothing! This schizoid -attitude toward money must be very confusing to an outsider looking at our culture. The trouble is that we have a long list of well-defined items which are either free or to be paid for. For example, it is not proper (in some locales not legal) to give a person a free ride. Rides must be paid for, in taxis or buses or trains. A hitchhiker (one who has the audacity to ask for a free ride) is a low form of life. But sex is supposed to be for free. A person who tries to charge for sex is a criminal. If a woman suggests to a man that he should pay first in case of fire, he is horrified; she should be "immoral" for nothing! It is all very confusing. The minister who comes to your house to comfort you after a death in the family is supposed to do this service freely, for love of God and you, but the psychiatrist, who provides the exact same comfort, must be paid. It makes no sense at all.”

And to this I say, bingo. Here she finally defines the Western psychology as a money psychology, and schizoid one at that. And I agree with her on all the points she raises. Interestingly enough, I have also read several Jungians who also note this issue, within our Western psyche and within psychology as a profession. But I will quote them at another time; we need to finish with our exploration of LaDage first.

But what has this to do with Western occult teachers, one may ask. An example could be the minister of a parish: he cannot serve his parishioners full time and still work eight hours a day to earn his own living. This exemplifies the position of any occult or Hindu teacher, too. And there is the matter of scholarship also. We understand why an attorney or a medical man may charge for what he has given many years and a great deal of money to learn. …

She starts off strong again, but she ends this statement with another contradiction.

… But beyond scholarship and time, servants of the spirit cannot be expected to serve well if they are concerned about payment. "Where your attention is, there will your heart be also."

It seems on the issue of money, LaDage gives with one hand what she of necessity must remove with the other. According to LaDage, we cannot be concerned with payments, though she accepts that it may be necessary for us to receive them. What?

So we have established that LaDage is herself a little schizoid about money, but then she delivers the piece de resistance that makes me forgive all her earlier ambiguity. She brings up the issue of money within a discussion of life force and now reveals why it is an important element of occult psychology. (The emphasis is mine.)

To try to resolve some of our attitudes toward money is to ferret out some of our feelings toward sex, spiritual values, and toward life in general. Money is the semen of the society, the symbol of its energy concentrated into a tangible object, the medium whereby energy is transmitted one to another and from generation to generation. … Money is therefore central in any discussion of Kundalini, representing as it does the root, the source of power. Our attitudes toward money are carried with us onto the path, and influence how we treat each other and ourselves.

Wow! Now this makes perfect sense to me. Money as crystallized life force does represent the Western libido in ways nothing else can. It is the way we suffuse our environment, our culture, even our spiritual path with meaning and value. And to struggle with money and what it represents would seem to be paramount to any seeker on the path within the Western world. So why do so many occult teachers avoid the struggle by opting out? Even LaDage is clear that this is an area we must all face on our path.

But, as mentioned before, at the same time that we are looking for something for nothing, we are convinced that anything that is for free isn’t any good. A wise teacher who hopes to be of real service to his pupils, must fit himself somewhere between these two stools. If he gives his time and the benefit of his scholarship without charge, neither his time nor his teachings will help the student. If he charges for his time and his scholarship, he will be classified with the commercial movements that serve spirituality in the West.

And so LaDage is issuing a challenge of sorts to all of us, to find a new synthesis within the “money psychology” of the Western world, to find a way out of the maddening cycle of wanting something for nothing while believing that if it is free it is no good.

And so after reading her book online for free, I went to Amazon and bought a copy. And in my own way, I hope I can face this challenge head on. I will be writing more about money, sex and power over the coming months. I hope to stimulate dialogue about the discomfort, confusion and frankly discordant messages circulating within our communities around these powerful yet mysterious subject areas.

Blessings to you and yours,
©2005 Katrina Messenger

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Submitted by katrina on Sat, 12/31/2005 - 8:44pm.

The Voices!

Screaming Voices

I was having a knock down fight with myself yesterday. It started with me on the phone with Medco Health, arguing about my prescription, when I suddenly burst into tears. I felt sore and exhausted, and it had been difficult to walk, move and even breathe. And this woman was telling me that my arthritic medicine would be delayed once again, due to red tape and bureaucracy. And the accumulated weight of all the pain and frustration finally overloaded my defenses and my boundaries crumbled under the burden of yet another unyielding administrator.

The woman at one point said something akin to “I’m sorry but I cannot hear what you are saying.” And I responded by saying, “That is because I am crying.” She offered to connect me with a pharmacist so I could discuss the repercussions of being off medication when I responded a little louder than I intended, “I know exactly what the repercussions are, pain and stiffness.” At which point, it became almost impossible for me to continue talking at all. I thanked her for her assistance very formally and hung up the phone. I lowered my head into my hands began loudly sobbing.

And that is when the fight began.

As I wept, my inner critic began assailing me.

“It is your own fault, you should have paid better attention to this. You are in pain because you failed to take care of everything promptly!”

The cruelty of that voice tore at my heart, but it also awakened my warrior.

“You will not place the blame on me”, I yelled back. “I mailed in the prescription, and the doctor’s office dropped the ball on responding to Medco promptly. You will not blame me for this.”

Another voice began, “Well, you should have taken the sample tablets when the doctor offered them.”

“Maybe you are right”, I offered, ” but at the time, I had over a sixty day supply of the tablets at home. So I thought I had enough, maybe I will remember this next time. It would be helpful if you remind me to take sample tablets when offered.”

I could feel the voices backing down; I had surprised them with the strength of my comeback. I could feel something else stirring within. I listened intently.

A small voice, almost hesitant, began softly, “It has been a long time since you cried like that in response to an unyielding institution?”

I began dabbing at my eyes gently, as I sat back trying to remember. I faintly remembered episodes like this when I was suffering from CFIDS. Suddenly the symptoms came into sharp relief, I was sore, stiff and moved to tears.

And the voice, a little louder now, began, “Yes, you do not normally cry in situations like this unless you are ill. Maybe it is not just that your prescription has been delayed.”

I checked in with my body, yes I have all the signs. I am sore, stiff and tired – I am coming down with the flu! The flu, only a simple case of the flu, thank the gods.

I prepared my special immune fortifying tincture and drank it down. An hour later I felt better. I thanked the voice for helping me. I asked her to continue to speak up and guide me. All day I drank fluids, rested and used the tincture.

Today, I am still a little sore. But today, I feel so much better and I am back to a level of health and well being where I can handle disappointments without falling completely apart.

I peek in the mirror every chance I get, so I can smile at the face smiling back at me. And today, I thank the gods that I finally learned which of the voices to listen to. I raise a toast in her honor. Ah, yes. All hail the voices in my head!

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Submitted by katrina on Tue, 12/20/2005 - 3:07pm.

Let’s Go Crazy & Vogue

Let’s Go Crazy & Vogue!

Madonna & Prince

Was thinking again this morning about how the gods need to be
anchored in this realm. And the role played by the temples and offerings made within them to do just that, anchor the gods in time. And how we of the modern era have forgotten, butchered and reviled the old gods. And I was thinking that if I were a god that needed to be anchored into the realm of time and had no temples or offerings, what would Cthulu do?

And it hit me. If I were a god who had no living anchorites, I would find someone who allowed my energy to flow within and from them freely, and I would enter the world through their flesh. And I started to think about how some folks say that Elvis was the Horned or Red God. And how I recognize Dian-y-Glas within Prince. And how Marilyn anchored Aphrodite. And how poor Madonna is anchoring Inanna. Sort of like aspecting, possession or in-dwelling, but without all the appropriate training or support.

And what happens to people who channel the old gods without training or support? Well let’s look at my examples. Elvis went from virile to sloth, and Marilyn died from the weight of the world’s projections. While the incandescent Madonna is at least seeking answers within the mystical. And the beautiful laughing blue god of love, what has happened to Prince? Well, he became a Jehovah Witness. And that is as sad as it gets.

It is the same thing with powerful teachings and rites. The Eleusinian Mysteries anchored the gods of agriculture, Demeter and Persephone/Kore. The mystical cores of Islam, Christianity and Judea anchored the great teachings of the Egypt and North Africa – the cradle of civilization. The Celts anchored the magic of the Fey, the Pacific Islanders anchored the magic of the oceans, while the Buddhists and Vedic traditions anchored the realms of heaven and hell, and indigenous Americans anchored the magic of the animals, trees, plants and the earth itself. Now of course you could come up with your own correspondences, but each land and people were given a portion of the universal to protect, remember and anchor in time.

And what happens when these old rites are ignored, abolished or declared heresies? They pop up elsewhere within human culture and history. Another ancient human tribe ascends into world consciousness to anchor the old gods. After burying their own temples, Europeans discover the Orient. And when Europe casts off their collective shadow and names it Satan, Africa looms large. And when reason begins to overcome imagination, they discover the new world and Native Americans. And when the mechanical universe threatens to dissolve mystery and the occult, up pops visionary scientists like Einstein, Darwin & Jung. Of course, none of this is sequential, and I am pretty sure I do not have it in any kind of order historically.

And what would the corollary be within Africa, the Americas and within Asia? Maybe when the dreamtime overcame the day, Europeans appeared to anchor the rational. Or when the perfection of heaven is held on too tightly, hell rushes in to force a rebalancing. I do not know. I only know that the rational day now overshadows the dreamtime and that we need a reawakening of the mystical back into human culture worldwide. And up pops a resurgence of indigenous spiritual traditions, a flocking to all sorts of fundamentalism, and neo-pagans of all stripes.

Every human tribe has at its root a connection to their portion of the universal human contract – anchor the gods in the world. And as western culture and the gods of Christianity ascend worldwide, the other gods and rites have to seek new connections and portals. Fundamentalist Islam is rising to counter fundamentalist Christianity, but fundamentalism of all sorts is rising as well. Pagans are ascending as well, and we too are literally battling with Christian principles and theology. Even Christianity, from fundamentalists to reformists, is at war with itself. Everywhere, the old order is being challenged and within it all if you look closely we can find the imprints of the old gods.

Funny thing, clumping us together with the fundis, but remember we are all responding to calls from the old gods. Because the old gods, well, they just want to live again. And if we keep killing off their avatars while denying their presence within our very own sflesh, well we are just asking for it on a global scale. So give Madonna a break, let Inanna live a little. We will all be better for the visit. And please, can someone give Prince a copy of the Spiral Dance? Sheesh!

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Submitted by katrina on Tue, 12/13/2005 - 12:39pm.

My Other Wing

Neo: “Why are my eyes so sore?”
Morpheus: “Because you’ve never used them before.”


I was thinking this morning about how much pain, constriction and injury is concentrated on the left side of my body. This morning I was using a tennis ball to release trigger points within my left hip and shoulder. The tightness reaches all the way down through my left leg. It is painful work, but the resulting relief is palpable even in my mouth and jaw.

Amongst magical practitioners, we tend to interpret physical symptoms as symbolic of energetic, emotional and mental ailments and blockages. So in addition to treating the physical body, we also trace the ailment back into the subtle body layers, i.e. charkas, auras and such. Our physical selves can provide clues as to where we are harboring calcified thought patterns, frozen emotions and shorted energy flow.

Today I am truly aware of how the restricted range of motion in my left shoulder could be interpreted as a wing that has not fully unfolded.

The left side of the body is usually thought of in traditional or indigenous medicine as associated with the non-rational or holistic side of self. The right side is associated with the rational, sequential self. The front of the body is associated with one’s outer face, one’s ego or conscious self. The rear or back is associated with ones inner or unconscious self. Our feet are associated with our path, where we stand and where we hold our ground. And our hands are associated with what we do, what we create and manifest.

I have long felt that our shoulders and hips also play pivotal roles. I am coming to believe that our hips have to do with our flexibility in the face of change, our ability to adjust ourselves like a tree in a storm. And what of our shoulders? I see our shoulders as the base of our wings. And in order to soar, to imagine, reaching new heights of perspective, openness and flights of fancy, we need strong, unfolded and healthy wings.

As I stretch, massage and strengthen my left shoulder and hip, I am working to also broaden my perspective and reexamine my inner dialogue. I need more space, more openness, more flexibility in the face of chaos, not less.

I decided that it is good that my shoulder and hip are sore, because maybe, just maybe it is because I am finally trying to use them.

Wake Up Neo

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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 12/12/2005 - 11:48am.

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