Natural Wonder

Reposted in honor of Blog Action Day

Into the WildWonder:
- One that arouses awe, astonishment, surprise, or admiration.
- The emotion aroused by something awe-inspiring, astounding, or marvelous

Looking at sunsets taught me about the many ways to mix purple and orange. Clouds taught me about diversity in the midst of sameness. Flowers taught me to live for each moment of beauty. And trees taught me about honoring the ancient. As a child I was a student of nature. I would spend hours in the woods surrounding my neighborhood. Digging up secret treasures, climbing over and through American history, laying at the lap of ancient mysteries, and losing myself gazing into the skies. I was a child of wonder.

My perfect vacation is a trip to the mountains. Climbing through old growth, sitting on exposed roots, watching the night sky and meditating on the morning mist. The first time I saw the wound of a clear cut I cried, I fainted my first visit to Mt Hood, I became dizzy at the sight of a star filled sky in southern Maryland, and breathless to a full moon on a clear night in the Atlantic ocean. I am also an adult of wonder.

But as I drive past strip mall after strip mall on my way to the mountains, as I see farms replaced by suburban sprawl, as historic sites are laid waste to over development, I am also quite angry. I often say how I hate northern Virginia but I seldom say why. I think central and southern Virginia are quite beautiful, but the overdevelopment of the northern areas is an abomination in my humble opinion. Now even Maryland is falling prey to the same infirmity. I swear that I cannot tell by train anymore where Baltimore ends and DC begins. The open spaces are disappearing.

Where will our children discover the wonder of nature, the lessens of the ancients, the feeling of smallness in the midst of natural beauty. Are we sacrificing our children’s inheritance to the convenience of the moment?

My friend Eric Quinn spoke to me once of the lesson of Portland Oregon. Where they took a look around and decided that the sprawl had to stop. I visited Portland a while back, and remember my trips outside the city. How the city abruptly ended and you were in the country. How the city was vital and healthy and the total lack of suburban sprawl. I remember with wonder the bustle of the city, the ancientness of the land around it and I weep.

Do we have the foresight, the means, the discipline to save our countryside, our old growth, our heritage? With the multiple jurisdictions and the competition for economic growth can we look past immediate gain for the promise of the long term?

I peer through my door at my postage stamp of a back yard. The previous owners of my house had planted three bushes close together and poured small rocks over the ground to create a patio of sorts. Weeds grow through the wide spaces between the rocks and encircle the bushes with vines that choke the flowers next door. The rocks make it impossible to use the lawn mower, and the bushes are encircled at the bottom by old tires. My neighbors look at it in disgust, the yard is much to small to be in such disrepair. My brothers have counseled me to dig the whole yard up and pave it. I am torn.

If I pave it over, am I not doing to this space exactly what I mourn others doing to the space around this fair city? Am I missing an opportunity to preserve green space? Is this the same view, that gave way to the strip malls, it is not pretty therefore lets pave it over?

I am sitting at work and I hear conversations about nightmarish commutes, and I speak up smugly about how I live less than four miles from my job. How my traffic consists of dogs being walked and elders on their morning constitutional. I read about the rise in houses bought in the city, but how families with children continue their flight.

How do we preserve the natural spaces, when we flee our problems instead of solving them. Why do we build anew, instead of fixing what has fallen into disrepair? We flee to the artificial beauty of manicured lawns and landscaped gardens, when the natural beauty we rip from the ground has so much to teach. Where will our children of wonder learn the deep lessons? In a book, in a zoo, in a movie, in a lab?

I sit on my back steps contemplating the history of humans. How we scar the world in the blinking of an eye. The previous home owner wanted order in this yard, but in the end it is nature that rebounds. Maybe it doesn’t matter what we do, nature will claim her own in the end. My neighbors are out every Saturday, fighting nature with due diligence. While my yard gives way to the needs of its living things. I ponder my own little lab experiment of universal lessons over coffee.

How do we learn our place in the universe? How do we comprehend our smallness in relation to the natural world? As a child I learned it sitting at the foot of ancient trees. When the trees are gone, how will we know who or what we are?

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Submitted by katrina on Mon, 10/15/2007 - 12:28pm.

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  • Claire-Marie Le Normond (not verified)

    Wish I could be there. Very well spoken.

    15 weeks 6 days ago
  • David Salisbury (not verified)

    Katrina,
    I wish you all the blessings and power you need on your journey. Thank you for these words. It is good to remember that returning to work (and thus returning to grace) bring a chance for us all to rest and have joy.
    Wishing you joy in the Work.

    David

    18 weeks 1 day ago
  • Sigre (not verified)

    Dear Katrina- Thorn reposted your blog and happy am I. Your passion, always so immense, comes blowing out in these words. So akin to my own heart and soul that it makes me have a bittersweet smile.

    The Storm is only now coming to the edges of our universe and yet it will sweep and consume all that is. In the end, our beautiful universe will be so much...more? Different? Complete? Who knows?

    All I do know is my soul came here to witness and be part in this period. I cannot shrink from the work. I am here with you, fae sister!

    18 weeks 3 days ago
  • Macha NightMare (not verified)

    Thought-provoking piece, Katrina. Thanks.

    I don't know what to call myself either. In Pagandom, I've taken to referring to myself as a Witch at Large. In the interfaith world where I'm active, I call myself a Pagan. Sometimes I call myself an uppity woman or a Second Wave Feminist. I've never really thought to publicly identify myself by my sexuality, het woman, which is very "white bread" and old-fashioned. Not only het, but serially monogamous for the most part. It seems almost a liability these days to say you're het, but I am proudly and happily so. I tend towards intellectualism but only have a BA, which doesn't carry much weight, at least in public and professional worlds, no matter how much you've studied, trained, and can articulate, even teach.

    My biological heritage is Irish, Dutch, French Huguenot, Euro-mongrel. My social heritage is Roman Catholic on one side and conservative Methodist, temperance-crusading, women's rights and education on the other, with distinct East Coast sensibilities, now mellowed by more than half a century living on the Left Coast. My maternal political heritage is conservative Republican (altho what my relatives might think of current trends in the GOP I cannot imagine, since they did have brains and they did think and they did have a social conscience), yet I am much farther left in my outlook than any elected official I know. My paternal political heritage is blue collar Democratic, except that my dad broke with his family on politics and allied with my mother's family's conservatism.

    I'm a former hippie, a home-birth advocate, a home death and green burial advocate, an opponent of capital punishment and resorting to warfare to resolve humankind's differences. I support the right to conscious self-deliverance. I rejoice in any and all consensual expressions of love and eros. I'm a lover and a mom.

    I have never missed voting in an election and I disrespect those who don't avail themselves of this hard-won right. (I have ancestors who fought the Brits in the American Revolution.) I support workers' rights. I recognize our interdependence on this planet, so could be called a greenie. I'm a committed environmentalist in my day-to-day life (in terms of eating locally grown food, expanding public transit, recycling, preserving open space and wildlife, opposing exploitation of natural resources [strip mining, oil-drilling, nuclear facilities, agribusiness, monocultures, clear-cutting timber, overuse of pesticides, genetic modification, etc.]) I want to make the city streets "safe for dancing," as my old friend Tony Serra said when he ran for mayor of SF on the Platypus Party ticket.

    Well, you got me going there, my friend. Thought-provoking read, as I said. ;-)

    xo,
    Macha

    35 weeks 6 hours ago
  • Eridanus (not verified)

    Lovely azaleas!

    [cough][gag][snort][sneeze]

    Just lovely...

    I know what you mean.

    37 weeks 3 days ago
  • Anonymous (not verified)

    I feel you. There is too much bs- particularly when people decide that their temperament is tantamount to truthful and ignore everyone else.
    I get irked by immature extroverts or closet introverts who ignore you REPEATEDLY and then pretend you're out of line for being upset by the time they can't pretend you didn't say anything anymore. I find that the same people will ignore you if you blow up right away, too, and that it's because they just don't think that honoring what you value is important to maintaining a relationship, or even worse: that you don't know what you value at all and that it's all a mind game for their pleasure or annoyance. Then they call you passive-aggressive, aggressive, moody, touchy and temperamental. I call them "not listening".

    37 weeks 4 days ago