It must be difficult being a student of a mystic. Often I feel like I owe my students an apology.
In my defense, I feel like I am in a single continuing conversation, and the faces all start to blur at some level. So I will begin conversations with, “As we were discussing,..” and then realize ten minutes in that this person who is now in front of me has no idea to what I am referring.
And I will say to the person to whom I began the conversation, “I was talking with a dear friend and …”. And only much later does it occur to me that this may in fact be that dear person standing in front of me.
I often say things that mean something different than how it first appears. I have noticed people correcting me then immediately repeat back what I thought I had said. I cannot tell if I had that part of the conversation internally or whether what I intended to say was spoken out of order.
I find myself confused often in conversations. I am hearing things that were not spoken out loud … or something. Sometimes it is as if I maybe missed part of the conversation.
This would all be frightening, disorientating, or depressing if were not for the almost constant flow of light, beauty, joy, connection and delight that permeates almost everything I do. I am reassured by every inhale, delighted by every blooming flower and comforted by every drop of water that passes across my lips.
Life is so rich, sweet, succulent, promising and full right at this very moment.
Oh yeah, did I mention that my book is finished? I am writing the preface and making final touches on the intro. And right now, that is oh so sweet and satisfying.
Blessings of the Waxing Moon as we turn toward Beltane’s Eve.
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Maggi (not verified) | Tue, 04/28/2009 - 9:39am
I get confused with what happened in dreams and if it has even happened yet or I am remembering the future sometimes. Very disorienting! I think while we need to make sure that we are clearly communicating, we also need to not make appologies for using gifts and perceptions of just how interconnected we really are. If you can hear where someone is coming from even if it isn't out loud, they are still communicating with you! Good for you that you can hear them on more levels!
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»Faethe (not verified) | Tue, 04/28/2009 - 1:26am
Congratulations on finishing the book. I am so excited, both for you and about it. I know how hard you have been working on it and it must be such a proud, sweet moment to have finished it.
You can learn a lot from a mystic, you know; it is one of those mysterious blessings. :-)
Love and blessings.
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»Eridanus (not verified) | Mon, 04/27/2009 - 10:45pm
The book is finished? THE BOOK IS FINISHED!!!
Oh happy day!
Love you!
Or have I already said this to you?
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»Ron Krumpos (not verified) | Sat, 02/27/2010 - 6:11pm
A student of mysticism said to his teacher, "I'm confused. Yesterday you told me the way I should search. Today you told my friend a very different way. Which is correct?"
The teacher responded, "Some people veer off the path to the left and I tell them 'move to the right.' Others stray too far to the right, so I say 'move to the left."
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