Respect or Fear

Sharecropper picThinking this morning about the principles my family passed down to us about work and working. As a descendant of field slaves and sharecroppers, both sides of my family survived the more brutal side of American slavery. We have no freedom papers or photographs of Negro accomplishment in our memories. My family celebrated every academic milestone as if it was your last. And most of our lives were spent working in often physically challenging and/or dangerous environments.

I was no different in my early years. I started off working as a cashier who regularly hefted 60 lb boxes of meat with ease, and later I put price tags on clothes in sub freezing temperatures while dodging rats on the way up from the bowels of the warehouse to thaw my hands out. When I moved up to union work, I started off soldering cables whilst climbing through steel infrastructure, and only occasionally tasting the metal in my mouth when my arms grazed live contacts. Later as an electronic technician, I alternated between transporting sometimes five to six 50 lb units a night, to installing, removing and repairing said units over and over again on a single night. It was physically grueling work, but the pay was close to $30 an hour in the eighties.

Technician PicThe truth of it, however, was that I was very proud of my work. I was following a family tradition of brawn with brains. Although we admired our collective intelligence, we were most proud of our physical strength and stamina. It is like my Dad use to say, “Respect or fear.” We would be respected for the quality of our work and/or feared for our abilities and strength – and we preferred both reactions as a matter of pride.

There were two other principles that drove our working life, pride in our craft and insolence toward incompetence in leadership. My Dad loved to tell stories about how he found and repaired problems that had stumped his colleagues. He also shared how all his coworkers respected him, even when he was joking around – because he was the best at his craft. My Dad especially was proud of his standing among his peers. His most brutal commentary, however, was always saved for management. Every once and awhile, he would be supervised by someone he respected, and he would speak of them like a colleague.

My own working world mirrored my father’s in many ways. My colleagues eventually respected me in my union world for the quality of my craft. But first I had to get past all their reluctance because of my race and gender. Once they realized that I could not only do the job, but was better at it than most of them – my work life improved somewhat.

Engineer PicWhen I look back at my career, the part where I had the most satisfaction was when I worked as a technician and later as an engineer. Like my Dad, I joked around a lot, but still earned a reputation as a master technician. Later in engineering, I again won the respect of my colleagues and clients. I was rated the top engineer several years in a row.

I also found it difficult to stomach incompetence in management, especially as I moved up against the entrenched incompetence caused by the “social” promotion of white males over blacks and women. Many of these white men were way beyond their competency levels, managing people with more education, higher technical skill levels and in some cases more managerial experience and training.

Some realized the insanity of the situation and abdicated leadership of their work groups to the more qualified people who worked for them – often focusing their attention on acting as buffer to the bureaucracy. Others simply left people alone, and allowed folks to do their jobs. The worse, however, were those who believed that their promotion was somehow deserved. They micro-managed in an attempt to justify their existence. And these were the ones I routinely punished. It did not take very long to demoralize such fools, and they would eventually abdicate and retreat to their desks. The best were those select few who actually had skills as a technician or manager; these men usually became my friends. In later years as promotions became based on skill, ability and experience, I had less cause to abuse management.

Pride in your craft and a strong distaste for overseers -- two principles of a working person’s life; and two strong threads within my family’s tradition.

©2006 Katrina Messenger

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Submitted by katrina on Tue, 02/28/2006 - 1:03pm.

Kiaser Sosei (not verified) | Tue, 02/28/2006 - 10:57pm

You have given me much to think about and I thank you for that.

Respect always,
Kiaser Sosei

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    This reminded me of something I wrote a few months ago: http://eoma-p.livejournal.com/36134.html

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    Could be the start of a fun adventure - whatever words you find that fit you best, may you be blessed for it!

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    Katrina,
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  • Macha NightMare (not verified)

    Thought-provoking piece, Katrina. Thanks.

    I don't know what to call myself either. In Pagandom, I've taken to referring to myself as a Witch at Large. In the interfaith world where I'm active, I call myself a Pagan. Sometimes I call myself an uppity woman or a Second Wave Feminist. I've never really thought to publicly identify myself by my sexuality, het woman, which is very "white bread" and old-fashioned. Not only het, but serially monogamous for the most part. It seems almost a liability these days to say you're het, but I am proudly and happily so. I tend towards intellectualism but only have a BA, which doesn't carry much weight, at least in public and professional worlds, no matter how much you've studied, trained, and can articulate, even teach.

    My biological heritage is Irish, Dutch, French Huguenot, Euro-mongrel. My social heritage is Roman Catholic on one side and conservative Methodist, temperance-crusading, women's rights and education on the other, with distinct East Coast sensibilities, now mellowed by more than half a century living on the Left Coast. My maternal political heritage is conservative Republican (altho what my relatives might think of current trends in the GOP I cannot imagine, since they did have brains and they did think and they did have a social conscience), yet I am much farther left in my outlook than any elected official I know. My paternal political heritage is blue collar Democratic, except that my dad broke with his family on politics and allied with my mother's family's conservatism.

    I'm a former hippie, a home-birth advocate, a home death and green burial advocate, an opponent of capital punishment and resorting to warfare to resolve humankind's differences. I support the right to conscious self-deliverance. I rejoice in any and all consensual expressions of love and eros. I'm a lover and a mom.

    I have never missed voting in an election and I disrespect those who don't avail themselves of this hard-won right. (I have ancestors who fought the Brits in the American Revolution.) I support workers' rights. I recognize our interdependence on this planet, so could be called a greenie. I'm a committed environmentalist in my day-to-day life (in terms of eating locally grown food, expanding public transit, recycling, preserving open space and wildlife, opposing exploitation of natural resources [strip mining, oil-drilling, nuclear facilities, agribusiness, monocultures, clear-cutting timber, overuse of pesticides, genetic modification, etc.]) I want to make the city streets "safe for dancing," as my old friend Tony Serra said when he ran for mayor of SF on the Platypus Party ticket.

    Well, you got me going there, my friend. Thought-provoking read, as I said. ;-)

    xo,
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